haiz.. i tot i was having a bad day yesterday only.. but who knows.. today the thing continues.. today the 4th bad thing happens..
i was watching tv jus now cos my bro wanna use com.. then when i come back, i saw this conversation window.. it was from my good buddy's bf.. for safety, i m not going to say who is my buddy and her bf.. yesterday i won a pair of tickets to watch goal! rmb? and i kept asking everyone for the whole day and i couldnt find anyone to go with me.. i also gt ask my buddy.. still no one is free.. i m not blaming anyone..
jus now her bf talk to me lor.. i read the conversation.. haiz.. i was like.. shit.. i forgot my buddy gt bf.. wat am i doing.. of cos her bf will be jealous and angry.. to be honest.. i had never tot of like getting close to my buddy or wat.. i m jus too happy tat day tat i won a pair of tickets.. it was my first time ever winning something from a competition.. and everone i asked was like unable to make it.. i jus want to go and watch the movie and keep the tickets as a memory of the thing i won first time.. haiz.. i nv really expected this to happen.. i jus want to enjoy the show.. i m not blaming her bf for wat he told me.. i can understand why he is so sensitive.. i did not realise i was like "dating" his gal.. haiz.. htein lin.. wat r u doing man..
jus now i was watching tv.. then they show the preview screenning which i was supposed to go.. i saw many soccer fans there on tv.. haiz.. how i wish i was there..
haiz.. really.. as my blog song goes.. [continues after the song]
I open my eyes.. I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light..
I can't remember how.. I can't remember why..
I'm lying here tonight..
And I can't stand the pain.. And I can't make it go away..
No I can't stand the pain..
How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes.. I've got no where to run..
The night goes on as I'm fading away..
I'm sick of this life.. I just wanna scream..
How could this happen to me?
Everybody's screaming.. I try to make a sound but no one hears me..
I'm slipping off the edge.. I'm hanging by a thread..
I wanna start this over again..
So I try to hold on to a time when nothing mattered..
And I can't explain what happened.. And I can't erase the things that I've done..
No I can't..
i am really damn sad right now.. i really nv expect this to happen.. i was jus trying to find someone to go with me.. this is the first time i winning something and not only everyone is unable to make it, i was told off.. haiz.. i m not blaming anyone.. jus tat.. haiz.. duno wat to say la.. if something can make a happy person like me sad and regret, this thing is really big.. haiz.. i hate doing this but all i want to say to those who is concern is..
I'M SORRY..