Wednesday, August 31, 2005
wat a day today is.. damn fucked up.. some pple made me fed up and some news made me fed up.. this morning i get up early.. get ready then go lakeside meet eric.. go to SP together.. then 9+ i finish le.. so i go food court 3 wait for eric.. he 10 then come.. while waiting for him, i cant wait to go back jvs man.. then eric came.. we go back jvs with some of our friends.. then reach jvs.. saw many ex students there also.. then we got to watch from canteen.. i think the teachers dont want us to go up i guess.. so put screen for us to watch.. then 11.30 like tat school finish.. actually is supposed to find miss D.. but all my friends were around and i cant find her.. later they see already they laugh.. i scared she will be paiseh so i nv go find her.. sian.. my long waited chance gone le.. then nvm.. i ask soe hlaing they all where they want to go.. they say go je eat.. then we go lor.. then on the way, we crack jokes.. then laugh together.. then when i say something, alvin turn around and laugh at me.. say i lame la.. loser la.. then i damn fed up.. i was like fine.. i m a loser.. i m nobody.. a lamer.. you are winner, somebody.. i cant compete with him.. then they eat mac.. after tat go play pool at K pool.. i damn sian.. no mood to play.. actually 1.30 supposed to go meet andrea they all go jamming.. then i no mood so i nv go.. i m really sorry guys.. i dont mean to not go one.. haiz.. then play pool i can score but i cant win.. i will score all my balls then the black ball jus wont go in.. everytime i see alvin i have some kind of feelings inside.. then play finish we go home.. then i come online.. saw soe hlaing.. he told me some bad news.. then i totally sian already.. i really really sian.. i cant say wat he said.. sorry.. then 7pm we go jun hao house there play soccer.. actually i dont want to play.. i jus sit outside and watch.. but u know, the temptation was there.. ur fav sport was jus in front of u, u sure want to play right.. then i play lor.. i nv talk throughout the game.. i jus play normally.. i ran alot jus now.. but i dont feel abit of tiredness.. i think is the anger tat is keeping me going.. then play finish soe say go our house there eat.. i say ok lor.. when we reach there, he nv eat.. colin and i eat only.. i was like wtf.. ask me eat but u nv eat.. actually my mother got buy chicken rice for me at home.. haiz.. then its like waste money sia.. he always like tat.. i cant stand it anymore.. then i see the time.. almost 11pm.. they still want to walk around.. haiz.. i nv say anything.. u know wat? today is my father's birthday.. and i m not even at home lor.. haiz.. im such a bad boy.. when i reach home, first thing i said was happy birthday dad.. lucky he jus say thx.. haiz.. guess u wont see a happy htein lin anymore.. or should i say, u will rarely see a happy htein lin already.. and by the way.. my name is htein lin.. and not buffon.. i m not fit to be buffon.. cos i sux.. and all stars? i guess i m not going to play anymore.. firstly, my studies are getting from bad to worse.. secondly, some of the teammates had made me fed up to the limit already.. thirdly, i m lovesick.. so dotn feel like playing soccer.. hmmm.. then who will be all stars keeper? i duno.. and i dont care.. im wishing all stars the best in the future.. if gt match, i will go support but not play.. haiz.. afterall, nobody will praise a keeper.. if u let in a goal, everyone starts pointing finger at u and scold u.. who ever put themselves in keeper's shoe.. keeper has lots of pressure.. one mistake and its a goal.. so, i guess.. i m hanging up my gloves ba.. and both of my hands are very painful now.. bye..
around the world in 80 days
[8/31/2005 11:16:00 PM]