Thursday, August 18, 2005
wa.. recently my days so sian.. today go school.. then duno wat the lecturers are teaching sia.. like no mood to study like tat.. then miss D also nv reply my sms.. she used to reply me.. i suspect something is wrong.. or am i thinking too much? i miss her so much sia.. from the second i woke up in the morning till the second i sleep every night.. sometimes even dreamt of her.. is this wat everyone called lovesick? i duno.. i only this kind of feeling is quite painful sia.. then last night jeremy ask me go school early cos want to talk to me.. then i go lor.. actually meet at 11.30 so i go there lor then jeremy sms me and tell me he will be late so i wait for hmi lor.. then i got scolded leh.. tat day the community service i go late.. and the projects given.. haiz.. community service is i go to mac find miss D then i go late.. i recently like not enough time to do all the things i want to do.. study.. project.. miss D.. 24 hours seems too little for me.. tomorrow i still have to pon class.. cos got this soccer tournament at simei.. early in the morning must go.. then miss D is unable to go support me.. i already dont feel like playing already.. then this saturday and sunday i got soccer matches also she cant come and support.. playing soccer this way is so meaningless.. i suddenly lost the passion for it.. i m like playing for the seek of playing and not cos i enjoy playing it.. then jus now soe tell me he dont want to play saturday match already.. cos is street soccer.. he say all stars got other 6 players.. then he must play reserve already.. i duno wats wrong with having more players.. he dont want to be a reserve? we always rotate our play one ma.. only i no choice cannot rotate.. haiz.. i knew bringing back old all stars player was a bad thing but now tat we did, no choice already.. i really scared all stars will fall sia.. we played together for more than 4 years.. almost 5 years already.. i dont want to see it fall jus like tat.. i must save it.. haiz.. and i miss her sia.. regretted not treasuring the times we had last time.. now tat we are abit apart.. hard sia.. tat time still no feelings.. now tat i got feelings and i m sure i really love her.. but i dont even know if i have the chance.. haiz.. ok la.. too long already.. bye..
around the world in 80 days
[8/18/2005 10:34:00 PM]